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The "So Now What?" Podcast

I am a Fertility Survivor.  The kind you enter into treatments hoping you will never be... childless.  After several rounds of IUI and IVF, at some of the leading Fertility Centers, I was told I was no longer a candidate for fertility treatment.  It left me asking myself...

So now what?

For the years that followed, I tried to put myself back together and tell myself I would be OK, but I wasn't.  I was shattered - I felt alone and failed by the whole process and especially, my body.  I yearned for others that felt the pain I felt and someone that could help me navigate a life without a child. 

I didn't find it, so I decide to create it.  

Fast forward to today. I am still childless, but my beliefs about my life have changed.  I decided that I can create meaning and purpose in my life even though I am not a mother.  I've learned to love myself and the body I felt failed me as a woman.

If you've been on this journey, hop on and join me as we create something we were not offered.  Let's create a sisterhood for the bravest women I know.  We brush ourselves off and don't let terms like: Failed, Unexplained, Miscarriage, Not-viable or Advanced Maternal Age define us anymore.  


Jan 23, 2024


I want to share a part of my personal journey, the return to work after realizing motherhood wasn't in my cards. It was a challenging transition, and I struggled with anxiety, questioning my alignment with my career path. This episode is about recognizing your worth beyond predefined roles and titles.

Jan 16, 2024

 Embracing Fulfillment Beyond Motherhood

Hey there, wonderful listeners! Last week's episode was a blast, sharing all the exciting things happening behind the scenes:

Jan 9, 2024

Hey, beautiful souls! Welcome back to another empowering episode. I'm Lana Mankowski, and this is the space where we delve into the intricate journey of being childless after infertility. Last week, we explored setting attainable goals, understanding their significance, and breaking them down into manageable steps....

Jan 4, 2024

On today's podcast episode is a heartfelt discussion on setting resolutions, especially after navigating the complexities of infertility. It's a topic close to my heart, and I want to share my perspective on how we can approach the new year with authenticity and self-compassion.

But before we dive in, let me update you...