The "So Now What?" Podcast

I am a Fertility Survivor. The kind you enter into treatments hoping you will never be... childless. After several rounds of IUI and IVF, at some of the leading Fertility Centers, I was told I was no longer a candidate for fertility treatment. It left me asking myself...

So now what?

For the years that followed, I tried to put myself back together and tell myself I would be OK, but I wasn't. I was shattered - I felt alone and failed by the whole process and especially, my body. I yearned for others that felt the pain I felt and someone that could help me navigate a life without a child.

I didn't find it, so I decide to create it.

Fast forward to today. I am still childless, but my beliefs about my life have changed. I decided that I can create meaning and purpose in my life even though I am not a mother. I've learned to love myself and the body I felt failed me as a woman.

If you've been on this journey, hop on and join me as we create something we were not offered. Let's create a sisterhood for the bravest women I know. We brush ourselves off and don't let terms like: Failed, Unexplained, Miscarriage, Not-viable or Advanced Maternal Age define us anymore.

The Life We Thought We'd Have

Oct 4, 2022

But I wanted to talk about a topic this week and offer you some opportunity to do some belief work in your own life. So, you know that I teach about the BFA cycle, so the belief, feel, act cycle, and one of the most. Eye opening and liberating parts of my journey of navigating my future.

When I found out that I was...

Speaking Up for Women with Infertility

Sep 27, 2022

How are you? How is this life of yours? How are you feeling? How are you doing and what are you doing to make changes in your life and in your future? That is my big question to you because I think so many of us get caught in believing that life is just always going to feel this way.

If you hear me speak often, you...

Will My Marriage Be Enough?

Sep 20, 2022

I am freshly back from vacation; this is our first time we did any time away since COVID we went to wine country in Sonoma.

And hung out there for a few days. And then my sister and her husband came and had just such a glorious time. We really had a lot of fun Jack and I really travel well together. When we travel,...

Loving Your Body Again

Sep 13, 2022

I am so committed to you, this community, and to myself to continue showing up every week, and offering you an opportunity to see that loving your life again, after failing IVF. Failing your infertility treatments does not have to be the end of your story. I am so grateful that these last 52 weeks (and now this 53) we...

Happy 1st Birthday

Sep 7, 2022

Happy Birthday. It is hard to know what you would have blossomed into when I hit "publish" on Episode 1. I was so uncomfortable sharing the emotions I felt and beliefs I clung to for years after failing any last IVF cycle and finding out any one frozen embryo had Trisomy-16 and would never be viable for implantation....