The "So Now What?" Podcast

I am a Fertility Survivor. The kind you enter into treatments hoping you will never be... childless. After several rounds of IUI and IVF, at some of the leading Fertility Centers, I was told I was no longer a candidate for fertility treatment. It left me asking myself...

So now what?

For the years that followed, I tried to put myself back together and tell myself I would be OK, but I wasn't. I was shattered - I felt alone and failed by the whole process and especially, my body. I yearned for others that felt the pain I felt and someone that could help me navigate a life without a child.

I didn't find it, so I decide to create it.

Fast forward to today. I am still childless, but my beliefs about my life have changed. I decided that I can create meaning and purpose in my life even though I am not a mother. I've learned to love myself and the body I felt failed me as a woman.

If you've been on this journey, hop on and join me as we create something we were not offered. Let's create a sisterhood for the bravest women I know. We brush ourselves off and don't let terms like: Failed, Unexplained, Miscarriage, Not-viable or Advanced Maternal Age define us anymore.

Dealing With Failure After Failed IVF

Feb 1, 2023

I was on a bit of a two week jaunt, running around, getting a lot of things done in my life, and I took a little step away from the podcast, which full disclosure I had a ton of judgment about because I felt like something was wrong with me for not being able to pull it all together and keep it all going.

But that...

Compensating for Being Childless

Jan 11, 2023

I've been thinking about you all week and so excited to share this week's episode with you because it is such an enlightening moment that I recently had, and I wanted to find the right words and opportunity to share this concept with you. There is so much of our life that is amazing and whether it's times that we...

Choosing a Word for Your New Year

Jan 3, 2023

I know that you are so looking forward to this year being so different and more light and more energizing than last year was, and I want to recognize that if you are not feeling the joys and the excitement and the desire to create a list of 40 new resolutions for yourself, you are not alone.

I know those feelings...

Your Infertility Story

Dec 28, 2022

thank you for listening to the podcast today, and if you landed on this podcast and something attracted you to it, listen to that little voice in your brain.

That is telling you that you want more from your story and that you want more from your life than to just chalk life up to being average and mediocre because you...

The Feelings We Wanted from Motherhood

Dec 21, 2022

I am so happy to be here and feeling so great about the magic that we can absolutely make in our lives when we go all in on ourselves and when we decide that these feelings of dread and these feelings of inadequacy and question, and all the things that I felt when I finished my infertility journey, and you might still...