IVF Failed You - The "So Now What?" Podcast

I am a Fertility Survivor. The kind you enter into treatments hoping you will never be... childless. After several rounds of IUI and IVF, at some of the leading Fertility Centers, I was told I was no longer a candidate for fertility treatment. It left me asking myself...

So now what?

For the years that followed, I tried to put myself back together and tell myself I would be OK, but I wasn't. I was shattered - I felt alone and failed by the whole process and especially, my body. I yearned for others that felt the pain I felt and someone that could help me navigate a life without a child.

I didn't find it, so I decide to create it.

Fast forward to today. I am still childless, but my beliefs about my life have changed. I decided that I can create meaning and purpose in my life even though I am not a mother. I've learned to love myself and the body I felt failed me as a woman.

If you've been on this journey, hop on and join me as we create something we were not offered. Let's create a sisterhood for the bravest women I know. We brush ourselves off and don't let terms like: Failed, Unexplained, Miscarriage, Not-viable or Advanced Maternal Age define us anymore.

IVF Without a Pregnancy — No One Saw You Trying

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What if the hardest part of infertility wasn’t just the treatments… but the fact that no one even knew how hard you tried?

In this episode of The "So Now What?" Podcast, we’re talking about an overlooked reality: what it feels like to go through years of IVF and fertility treatments and never even get a positive...

Friendships When You're the Only Childless One

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You love your friends. You’ve grown up together, lived through milestones, and shared so many memories. But now they’re raising kids, and you’re navigating life after infertility. You’re the only one in the group chat without a child, and suddenly, the conversations feel distant.

Do you go and feel left out?

Or...

Infertility and the Shame, Secrecy, and Guilt That Haunts You

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If you are a woman who is childless not by choice, you know the heartbreak of infertility does not end when treatments stop. You might still feel like shame and guilt are following you around every day.

In this episode, you will hear why infertility shame and secrecy can stay with you for years after IVF or other...

Childless After IVF: When the Path to Your Dreams Feels Impossible

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If you have spent years going through fertility treatments like IVF, pouring everything into your dream of motherhood, and still found yourself without a child, you know how heavy it feels to imagine a future that could ever feel as meaningful.

In this week’s episode, Lana shares a deeply personal story about standing...

Your Meaning as a Childless Woman After Infertility

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Your Meaning as a Childless Woman After Infertility

If you ever find yourself waking up on a Saturday, staring at a day that is completely yours and feeling more suffocated than free, this episode is for you.

Maybe you spent years picturing weekends packed with soccer games, birthday parties, college visits, and noisy...